December 22, 2011 - 2:48 pm.
If karma really exists, then I would like to know all the things I have done in my life to deserve the shitty things this world keeps dumping on me. I’ve tried my hardest to be there for people, to be loving, giving, non judgmental..I’ve sold myself short, thrown my self respect, my self-worth to the wind in order to give. I’ve asked for absolutely nothing in return, and gotten absolutely nothing. Karma, you are a mother fucking bitch. How am I supposed to live day by day, convincing myself that I am worth something, when around every corner is another reason to believe I am not. I am not. Nothing I can ever give is ever good enough..For anyone. Something somewhere has got to give, you’d think, right? I feel absolutely disgusted with myself, and this world all together. If this is it, if this is all life has to give, then I don’t want to live in this world. I’m working myself in circles, selling myself short to be completely and utterly disrespected. It’s fucking exhausting..and I am far beyond over it.
