Friday December 9th - 7:41pm.
My life is starting to feel awfully monogamous as of late. In the past few months I’ve been completely fine with said fact but as my weeks quickly slip away and I find myself having nothing to show for them I start to feel extreme anxiety. What am I doing? I’m tired of routine, I need excitement, change of scenery. It doesn’t help the fact that I invest all of my free time and energy into the friendships I have, friendships in which I find myself investing all of my time and energy clinging to. Holding on extremely tight when in all reality I’m not at all sure I would have if I didn’t try so hard. I mean I love the relationships I’ve built, I really do, they are my lifeline but it’s terrifying knowing that they probably aren’t as strong as I lead myself to believe. Quite frankly my knuckles are white at this point and my fingers are about ready to break, leaving me to fall into a pit of uncertainty and possible isolation.
I have issues, I am well aware.
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